wondering.

"sometimes i think about the way things used to be
had it all figured out when i was two or three
then i made some mistakes that i regret
let some things in my mind that i wish could forget
but i don't think i could erase these memories
thats why i'm down here on my knees

i'm wondering
if you're listening to me
just wondering
who i'm suppose to be
i'm just wondering
if there's more to life than what i see
i'm wondering, just wondering

oh Lord my God when i am lost
and wonder about the man on that cross
and all the pain i put him through
and everything that i still do
which drop of blood did i make him shed?
did i put the thorns onto his head?
i try to do what the Savior said
but i slip all the time on the path he led

i'm wondering
if you're listening to me
just wondering
who i'm suppose to be
i'm just wondering
if there's more to life than what i see
i'm wondering, just wondering

just when i think these prayers are in vain
i feel a power my heart that releaves my pain
so let these words get past your brain
stop wondering
stop wondering

'cause i know that our Fathers love is real
open your heart and let it feel
cause i've never felt this love before
and i'm not wondering anymore

i'm not wondering

i'm not wondering wondering any more
wondering wondering any more.."

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-Aaron Edson

these words are true. why else would they make me simply cry

on an evening when i realized i needed them,
and have for a while?