i'm just someone searching.

searching for something.

the most memorable summer?
the flawless conversation?
the perfect sequence of events?

the ideal moments.

i'm just someone searching.

and this chase will cost me all the moments that are slipping by,
without even a glance by my hungry eyes;
not even given a chance to measure up.
what a shame to only collect
what ifs and what would have beens
while the good times went walking right on by.


just a doodle.

full of a message about life.
 find all 20 pieces and i will give you a prize.

finished on 1.10.11
(this is what kept me occupied for about a month
of classes during the sophomore winter)



these things are called
from our point of view.

letters, sounds combine
creating the familiar characters we use.

spoken, written, whispered, typed
communicating truth.

formations infinite, usage varies
meanings possibily skewed.

always being handled
by minds and mouths not few.

through time and time again
societies old and new.

proving language to be one of the most
     ancient and common things
this world ever knew.


trekkin' it.

on their journey west
when things got hard and times got tough
they put one foot in front of the other
putting their trust in the Lord
keeping the faith and
continuing forward.

so on our journey,
the one we call life
we can do just the same.



is her name. we got her almost a week ago.
keedah and her are still learning to get along,
but we adore her anyway.


a black & white summer

and all the shades in between.


pioneer day tradition.

1) "let's go to the library!"

2) "oh no! it's closed."

 3) "well let's go to iceberg and get shakes instead!"

*drive through*

4) "best shakes ever."

every. year.


there's a space.

a spot in your heart that is reserved for one other individual.
a piece of your soul packaged for only them to open.

some call it love, others call it best-friendship.

but it's a connection of its own.
a level none other can reach.
it's deeper than the rest.

the reservee holds a matching key.

i do believe that over time the holder can switch
and someone new can hold the key
because time and circumstance changes people
and the two may no longer match.

for me, this space has always been filled,
though the individuals differing.
but it seems lately realiztion of change has set in
and the space is discovered empty.

a part of me relieved.
there's nothing to hold me back.

a piece of me feels the need to fill the space.
as human beings, it's what we tend to do.
it's what we've always done.

but it appears everyone elses packages have already been mailed.

to find a matching key, 
i think your heart doesn't need to have brand-new, never-used space
but rather just empty; ready and willing to be filled.

knowing what the other key will look like to match.

now i'm just waiting
because it doesn't feel like fate
is emptying me by accident.



year down.
year to go.

what a
quick 365 days
it's been a
long one year.


i like things in rainbow order.

i know i'm ridiculous.
i get quality art supplies handed to me
and the first thing i do?
take photographs of them.
looks like i know where my heart will always be 
when it comes to art medium!



the human race.
our lives are so intricate and complicated.
there has to be someone orchestrating everything;
weaving this beautiful tapestry together.
someone who knows what they're doing,
someone who is almighty.

or else things just wouldn't work the way they do.


musn't quit.

what beautiful words


it's amazing how spending a week on a mountain can strengthen you so much.
for me, it did just that.
my testimony is more real that it has been in my entire life.

(please excuse the not as good quality.
i had to leave my baby home where it was safe
and bring a regular point and shoot with me.)


i did it.

my scores are in:

AP Calculus AB: 5
AP United States History: 3

a five and a pass!!!!!
it's all i've ever wanted.
i was shaking while opening the envelope.
when i saw the numbers i screamed and then started crying.
tears of complete joy and satisfaction streamed down my cheeks.

i did it.
i set my mind to a challenge. i worked my hardest all year long.
and i achieved the goal i set.
i've yet to experience a better feeling.

(hence the brightly colored party confetti all over the scanned image)


the 4th.

red white and blue outfit. 

 "meeting" Thomas Jeffereson 
"signing" the declaration of independence

 original documents signed by
Ben Frank & George

 Thomas Jefferson and Abe

 priceless items.

 one of the original declarations.



 & friends.