you're worth more than gold.

Eyes of light
and a
heart of gold
is what they
told me.


the class of 2013.
we're a peculiar class.
the biggest parties held all year were the ones we refered to as
"mission call opening"



God's lookin' out for me. He knew this time would be extra hard for me. the time of senior year, graduation, it all coming to a close and everyone going separate ways, beginning their own different lives.  He knew it would be hard for me to handle the change, to soak it all, appreciate it for what it was but also be able to move forward and continue with the life He has in store for me.  He's been preparing me for this change.  He's lead me to friendships that can still be significant though this change is coming.  He's given me opportunities to participate in that will allow my focus to be on the exciting future.  He's given me things I know about myself that are concrete and that I can hold fast to through these changing circumstances.  This whole time I didn't realize, but now I see how much He has blessed me.  He has handed me the tools to be able to work through this difficult time.  To be strong and rely on my faith. He tested it before now just to make sure it was strong enough to carry me through.  In order to obtain that life I want in the future I have to go through this change now.  I have to be able to let things go, to move on.  Though that is something that doesn't come easy to me, I've got to.  And because of His blessings and help to this point I can begin to.  I'll be strong enough to graduate from a high school that has grown so dear to my heart and allow it to be tucked away and find something new to replace it.  It will hurt, it does hurt, but how can I desire to be like Christ and not be willing to go through something similar to what He went through?  So that is my focus.  Through all this change I will remember that trials are a part of this life but I can cling to the truths of the gospel and be comforted and receive help and guidance.  And I am grateful for this knowledge at this point in my life.


I wish to give my entire self away
and never, ever have to go through
the pain it takes to slowly gather the pieces back.


sweethearts 2013.

from sadies to sweethearts.
i've come to know this guy
and i'm grateful for that.


i love people i hardly know.
i laugh really loud at the smallest things.
i smile while walking by myself.

although odd, it seems to be common these days.


valley lights.

along with views of bright futures.
which are sneaking up on us ever so quickly.
i just pray to feel that it's okay that they are.



oh how I would have loved to be there that day on July 4, 1776
and hear the words written by mr. Jeffereson.
Him and Washington are by far my favorite.
my hat goes off to them today.


pouring light.

light poured through my window
as i cuddled up in fuzzy blankets
and was embraced by sunshine.
it was the first time in a long time
my mind and soul chose to rest
and not just my physical tabernacle.



time is an interesting concept.
sometimes it strangles me.
i'm just grateful for 5 year memory books
photos that are archived first on my facebook timeline


because life is hard; people are fragile.

Tiny flames sparkled, dotting the crowd.
the candlelight illuminated the cold air exhailing from my lungs.
under bright stars, i stood grateful for each breath I took.
the number of tear streaked faces and aching hearts amazed me;
a gathering of
dancers, jocks, vikings, t-wolves,
people i've known since we became people, people i didn't recognize,
coaches, even the principal--human beings alike,
all with one thing in common:
memory of a girl who brightened days and caused laughter.
we stood on daily ground.
only yesterday, innocent and carefree.
making it very impacting and real.
let's promise to never take beautiful moments for granted.
let's promise to always tell the people we care about
how much we do.
and let's promise to never ever forget what we've felt
and what we've learned
and commit to be
more loving,
more considerate,
more compassionate
to family, friends, and even strangers.


the other piece of me i havn't found.

All this longing I feel for the past.
All this hope I have the future.
All this desire to experience and live.
I want it to be filled with you.
Sometimes when I feel all these emotions
 I also feel a peculiar, empty part of me;
I’m starting to sense that that’s the space

you will fill.


the days i spend being inspired by other's blogs
instead of writing biology essays.
it's the nights that i spend coloring envelopes
rather than catching up on the sleep i need.
the time i spend coming up with blog posts like this
other than acheiving a checkmark in my maxed out planner.
and then i remember words someone spoke once in hearing distance of my ears:
"If you are too busy to study the words of God and to pray,
then you are far busier than the Lord ever intended you to be."
and then I think, maybe thats why I can't feel the balance anymore.


so, shine anyway.

it's the trials that make us great,
we just have to see it that way.


man, these guys are good.

both me and my best friend got asked to sweethearts tonight.
and the way the guys carried out their master plan was genius.
she was baffled and i was stunned.
they are simply the sweetest :)