change is soon to come. big change. and when i say soon i mean
in 7 terms, 13 school dances, 3.5 semesters, 2 christmas's, 1 summer, 1 birthday.
we will be scattered.
tonight, i walked the halls of my elementary school. i relived the moments i was there. it was only a short decade ago that they started. an even shorter half-decade that they closed.
where have i come since then?
taking a glance backward causes realiztion to set in when turned forward again.
in another short half-decade where will i be?
thinking of that crackling day when graduation will push us in different directions is unbearable at this point. but, with each passing moment we get closer. i don't want to waste them away wishing for better ones.
so i'm not going to any more.
i love today.
i love that i got to spend my lunch listening to a history teacher bare his testimony.
i love that i got to attend a field trip on a school bus this morning.
i love that when i came home from school, i played a piano.
i love that i got to spend the evening talking with core friends.
i love that the sun rays just before sunset were golden.
i love that i recognized that.
i love that i get to be overwhelmed with a new aspect of calculus every b1.
i love that i get to wake up before the crack of dawn and walk through the past chilly air, just to feel the relief of walking in the warm school doors.
i love that i get to project most of my hours and efforts into that place.
i love that i get to dress up for halloween this weekend and party.
i love that anytime i get in my car i can plug in my tunes and drive anywhere i want.
i love that i get to run everyday with a team. on a canal at that.
i love that i walked around asking for donations for an expensive choir tour coming up and a Nike race even sooner.
i love that sadies hawkin's is suddenly two weeks away and pereference will soon follow.
i love all things i have on my to-do list that stress me out.
i love that i still have my senior prom to look forward to.
i love the fact that i don't know who i will marry.
i love that i can imagine my dreams and
i can make anything happen if i want it to.
i love that my future is unlimited and open.
because soon, it feels so soon,
it will slip through my regretful grasp and i will want it back. i know i will.
i am loving it today instead of loving it when it's gone,
because then the love will only hurt.