crunch time.

it feels like i have been training my whole life for the olympics

and now its my time to compete in the games.

a snippet

from the email recieved from panama today:

"Tell Nicole I Love her, she is my little Sister
and she means more than the world to me. Tell her to Smile. Everyday
can become brighter if we let it :) This world needs good, so go be
part of that team :)"

i love you too brother. so much.

sunday couldn't come soon enough.

good in goodbye.

driving that drive and walking that walk was

all too familiar.

my heart was under attack.

As bad as it was, as bad as it hurt
I thank God I didn’t get what I thought that I deserved
Sometimes life leads you down a different road
When you’re holding on to someone that you gotta let go
Someday you’ll see the reason why
Sometimes, yeah sometimes, there’s good in goodbye

I don’t regret it
The time we had together
I won’t forget it
But we both ended up where we belong
I guess goodbye made us strong
And yeah I’m happy
And I knew one day I’ll see you on the street
And it’d be bittersweet

As bad as it was, as bad as it hurt
I thank God I didn’t get what I thought that I deserved
Sometimes life leads you down a different road
When you’re holding on to someone that you gotta let go
Someday you’ll see the reason why
Sometimes, yeah sometimes, there’s good in goodbye

                                                                 --Carrie Underwood

or listen.

but the act was necessary

 it was the least i could do

for someone who meant

so much to me.

no-mans land.

i stand on no-mans land.

emotion at war.

this barrier might have the stereotype of nuetrality. safety.

but the atmosphere here is nothing similar to the latter.

the feeling is erie. unsure.

the unknown knowledge of which territory is proximate;

which side of the line is bordered.

that's the most insecure part.

i stand facing west, towards the setting sun.

past to my left. future to my right.

time at war.

no appetite to step left. not equipped to step right.

halted in the middle.

i am unsure of the current status of the war; which side is winning.

so i guess i'll take a seat and wait for further notice.

all i wonder is where you are stationed on this battlefield.

junior prom.

dress:

my mother, is more amazing than words can describe. 

it was necessary to document it with a mini photoshoot:

now for a little abstract:

date: michael anderson

PROM 2012 //  YOLO

may the fourth be with you.

i like rollercoasters.

most of the time.

i enjoy the anticipating climb to the summit,

the moment of awe at the top when the horizon settles into view,

and the exhilirating thrill that drops in your stomach during the downward throttle.

up

and

down.

most of the time, i like rollercoasters.

but as far as today goes,

just get me off this ride.

i think i'm going to be sick.